Well, today was a shit day...
Today was Naomi's graduation from the 4th grade.. just a really really small graduation outside the school. But it was cute.. so the day started out good .. I went for my walk and went to the library.. I got some cool true crime books and got some books for Naomi to read... she's having her tonsils out tommorrow... so I thought it would be good for her to have something quiet to do to rest her throat. I came home and cleaned the bathroom.. and babysat.. pretty much for my last time with Erica... Its really sad. And i'm going to miss her. Then Patrick calls and starts bitching because apparently he called earlier and his mom answered and she told him she had to go and to call back later because she was on the other line.. so after he bitched me out about that.. and yes, bitched me out .. why i have no idea... anyhow,then i ask him when he's going to be home .. because again, we are going to be at Naomi's graduation .. he freaks out on me about noone telling him... i'm like .. are you fucking kidding me ?
of course i told him, he just doesn't listen to anything i say.. he talked to me like i'm an asshole bc he didnt know..so i of course am pissed off now...and i tell him fine, if he happens to get home between 5:30- 6:30 thats where we will be. bye.. We go to the graduation and its cute... and then he shows up... he seems fine . then starts going on bout ..
more later.. my husbands up !!
Con't'ed from last night ...
So he's going on about how the bikers don't respect him and the other walkers at his courier job... blah blah... he's pissed off about that.. then he's mad at Laurie because she's going on about Tolga.. and she starts going on about how starting in August we might have to all start paying the full rent.. because the housing people said they never got her paperwork.. now , i'm honest, so i'll say it here.. its her fault.. she doesn't follow up on anything intil its too late and then we are ALL fucked.
She's trying to get that all fixed now, now that it's too late of course. So, we still dont know whats going to happen with that.. anyhow .. then Patrick goes off about how he doesn't want to be on the new lease if that happens and how we will move out and get our own place... with me not working, and his expensive taste and him being frivalous with money, i don't see that happening.. but whatever.. .so i tell him to stop acting like a baby.. and stop being such an ass.
We get upstairs finally and the fighting continues... So, i go outside and sit down and start reading .. trying to ignore all of it .. then he calls me in to be "in" on the conversation .. just what i was trying to aviod doing.. i really do feel like i have no say in anything involving getting a new place , moving or whatever.. because i'm not working .. so i tell him to just figure out what they want to do, and i'll just follow along .. i dont have a choice. :(
He's saying he wants to move out of toronto and to like Barrie or somewhere cheaper... but i dont know .. that's what i was saying to him when i was talking about getting a house down the line ..
So, the whole thing ends.. and we are all basically not speaking to each other..
So this morning .. He wakes me up being loud getting ready for work..so i'm up at 7:30 this morning .. and Naomi's surgery was at 8 am.. so she was already gone and at the hospital when i got up . He leaves for work and i'm here alone all day.. Laurie's on vacation for the next 2 weeks.. so i know thats going to drive me nuts.. so i'm glad i was here all day.. anyhow, i'm waiting to hear about how Naomi's surgery went .. and noone calls me .. . then Laurie just calls me about 20 minutes ago <about 1pm> and asks me to drive and go pick up her and Naomi from the hospital.. my fucking car is outta commission because the tags are expired and someone knocked off the drivers side mirror .. i haven't driven it in like a month... because if i get caught driving it like that.. i'll get in big trouble.. no tags, no insurance, no mirror .and i'm not a resident here.. it was stressed to me that if i get in any trouble while i'm here, i can be kicked out of the country .. and i'm sorry but i'm not willing to do that, just so she doesn't have to pay to take a taxi home. She's done this to me several times before.. and it really pisses me off .. because then i feel really bad.. i feel like an asshole for not wanting to drive my car and going to pick them up...
I called Patrick and he's telling me not to feel bad.. but i can't help it , i do .. and i could tell that Laurie was pissy with me on the phone when i told her i didnt want to drive and pick them up ... what annoys me the most is that, before i moved here.. NOONE had a car.. and up intil march my car was legal and i personally felt they took advantage of the fact that i have a car.. WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU GUYS DO BEFORE I MOVED HERE??? Whatever it was... do it now too .. Seriously.. Tolga knew his daughter was having surgery today.. he had PLENTY of notice.. he could have re-scheduled his meeting with his lawyer... to make time to take his daughter home .. he drove them this morning and dropped them off .. and now can't hang around to bring them home.. AFTER HIS DAUGHTER HAD SURGERY.. typical Tolga.
On a good note,based on yesterday's money horror .. Patrick's realized that with the amount of money he makes,there is NO way that him and I shouldn't be able to live ...even with me not working. I was babysitting,which ended yesterday < today I hung flyers for summer babysitting work> so, i was buying my smokes .. and we were just blowing money like it was ridiculous.. He makes between $1500- $2000 a month .. we only pay $560 for rent and then his bus pass which is $110.. and then his cell phone bill which is like $70 a month .. there is NO WAY .. we should be broke all the damn time.
I told him he should be taking $100 or a little more out of each check towards everything for the month, then at the end of the month, its paid ... and we aren't short.. the last 2 checks of the month were going towards rent and all that.. so after that, we had no money and had to be ass broke for close to 3 weeks.. its horrible ... anyhow . we'll see how that goes and see if he can do it .. because apparently .. he's sick of me telling him what to do .. and what he can and can not afford.. which is funny because i say NOTHING when he's spending $70 a game for his xbox 360 and blowing money and then we are broke .. i SAY NOTHING.. yet i'm telling him what to do .. suggestions aren't telling him what to do.. ughhhhhhhh.
I'm so fucking sick of fighting about money and not having any .. i swear when i get a job .. my money is going to be my money and i'm going to be saving like a fiend !!!! More later !